CONSUMED: the word of the day. i struggle with being satisfied with my life only because i know in my own world, the pieces don’t fit. there are things that i want and can’t have, moments when i think “why not” and most of all the confidence in myself no longer exists. it is a toss up between wanting and needing and I certainly need more than what I have but then for a moment, I think maybe I should just be satisfied with what I have. That is the optimum word: SATISFIED.
Why should be satisfied? that is the lesser than what we deserve. Hard working, motivated, achieved, you would think I would be more but with all the efforts I have made, nothing seems to fit. Take this online shop or website, for years I have been creating unique pieces with words and nothing. I am still working a dead end job where I get yelled at 80% of time by callers and make minimum wage. I wanted the freedom of creating something that would generate enough money so I could have the time to enjoy life.
Here I am almost 60 and nothing to show for it. This isn’t what life should be about.