there is something to be said about people in your past. they have crossed our paths for a reason, disappear in the middle of nowhere and then all of a sudden, one day, they show up again. I am a creature of believing the message is clear and you should listen to that. when something has died inside, something that use to make you feel good about life and yourself, it takes but one word to trigger that light. people find other ways to cope with the bad and then cover up any feelings of anxiety, depression or sadness because they feel ashamed but what is really going on is that what once was thought as a good thing no longer fits.
I was clearly disappointed again these past few weeks thinking people had forgotten it was supposed to be my special day as I turned 60 on December 18th. Those special people from my past made feel insignificant and a few days ago, some of those people decided to text me out of blue. Yesterday, someone else messaged me and I said straight up: “usually long forgotten people only text me when they need something”. that person said they were thinking of me and decided to reach out.
right. all I could see and feel was that they had a need and I was the target.
I get we all have lives but you spend a lot of time and precious moments with people, they should acknowledge you no matter what. I know I have not been there for others as I should have been but when it is an important day or should be, they should acknowledge you. so as I feel sorry yet again for this moment in time, I think what was the message here.
I used to be so good at this, analyzing these messages, thinking how it would affect me and what the lesson was but now, it is a complete blank. Reading to much into messages can also trigger much more than what is really going on but I have always been right about my intuition. as I wonder what the new year is going to throw at me, I am ready to turn those numbers, face it head on and know that whatever is thrown in my path will be a good lesson. People may come and go but their meaning is what shows me their value.