When someone suffers with Mental Health are we driven by the way we talk to them or how we react to their behavior?
This is the question that is running in mind, this fine Sunday morning. Key words, trigger words can throw anyone off balance but negativity is the main ingredient for sending you back at the bottom of that rabbit hole.
Let’s take a moment and relate. I realize lashing out isn’t the answer when someone take a negative tone but I have to say, it is totally valid. It is taking me forever to get back a positive happy vibe and the minute someone says anything negative or points the finger, I lose it.
It is like a ticking time bomb that renders itself when I am faced with negative comments or feedback. I feel as though I am worthless, unworthy of a great life and I can do nothing right. I am surrounded by people who do no understand what I am going through and seeking professional help seems ridiculous for a session of text book theories.
Yesterday, I made some brunch and ask my partner if he wanted some. I make this great recipe with ground beef gravy and slap on fries with cheese. When it was all ready, I sat down and he asked: “is it ready”. of course the answer was yes and he then wondered where his fries were. I didn’t hear that he wanted fries, so I didn’t cook enough for him. Feeling stupid again for not understanding, I lashed out.
ME: “I can’t do anything right”
HIM: “Can we stop with the attitude” was his reply.
I can tell you, I didn’t feel like eating after that, I simply retreated and went back to bed, my safe place I guess.
I feel it when I know I am in a bad place, very aware of my emotions and when thoughts are running in my head but I have to say, I don’t believe his words were called for. Nonetheless, I, in my believe they are true.
and this is where I am today …what are you thoughts?
